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DOWN IS UP

Suicide doesn’t want me!
Society doesn’t want me!
My family doesn’t want me!
Care doesn’t want me, am I
The only one who cares?
Me, without emotion who
struggles with depression.  

The care system I have live with
ends up depressing me more.
What am I to do, just depend
On me to score?  I put my heart
And my soul on the page
Let you read me torn.

I’m shooting up
Too shoot down

This is all I know.

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